I am not present in most aspects of my life.
“Live in the moment!” is something I fundamentally don’t understand. I don’t, I live in the past and the future. Which contributes to anxiety, and means I am rarely present. I don’t stay in the moment because I can barely even get there. And I had no idea I was doing that. Or wasn’t doing that, as it happens.
So I am unprepared to be present, to show up, to participate and to engage in my personal life.
I make a living from future thinking, analysis of the past and crafting strategy for good stewardship of resources. The majority of my days are spent not looking much at now but at desired conditions, building relationships and successful future outcomes. I have achieved a lot of success being really good at looking forward.
Time to learn to be present.